its going to rain

And its my fault. I got the car washed. Damn Murphy and his laws. That's life, right? I could actually use a bit of rain in my life. Funny how as soon as I find something that makes me absolutely ecstatic to be alive, three new things creep in to try their best to remind of life's sorrows. Always three... what is is with that magical number? That is neither here nor there, I suppose.

Things have been heavy this week but I have learned a few things... or re-learned I should say.

1. Life is so very precious. It can be taken away in the blink of an eye.
2. It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. (yes this is such an old cliche saying, but it has survived the test of time for a reason.)
3. I must live out my Personal Legend. I am obligated to. I must do what makes me happy. What makes me feel alive. Despite the naysaying of others.

I am currently re-reading The Alchemist. And in the forward of the book, the author Paolo Coelho writes:

Oscar Wilde said: " Each man kills the thing he loves." And it's true. The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary perso with guilt. We look around at all those who have failed to get what they want and feel that we do not deserve to get what we want either. We forget about all the obstacles we overcame, all the suffering we endured, all the things we had to give up in order to get this far. I have known a lot of people who, when their personal calling was within their grasp, went on to commit a series of stupid mistakes and never reached their goal- when it was only a step away.

This is the most dangerous of the obstacles because it has a kind of saintly aura about it: renouncing joy and conquest. But if you believe yourself worthy of the thing you fought so hard to get, then you become an instrument of God, you help the Soul of the World, and you understand why you are here.

So that is where I am at right now. I just need to remember to breathe.

Comments

[brianna]

Hit me up, yo!

[Jessica]

Thank you for sharing...man, that is so true at times. Great reminder to grab hold of what you worked hard for & enjoy it!

[fjl]

What a fantastic post. I so identify. You could have written this for me, and my research. Finding motivation for the last lap of something wonderful, is very hard. You become afraid that it has a destiny of it's own, and you'll have no control. I think that's how it is.
I laughed at what you said about Murphy and his laws. You have the cool Southern Belle sense of humour.